WRITTEN BY: Imani
I couldn’t believe my eyes. I thought that my ears deceived me too. It felt like some of those times when you wish that time could fly so fast. That all clocks could strike thirteen. I wished my past could be carried away by a swift neck-breaking whirlwind. My head was so cramped and my eyes itchy with fatigue but still my afternoon didn’t seem to come to an end. The silence was deafening!!
What kind of life is this? Why can’t the long wait come to an end? It felt like the minute-hand on my watch had stood still and my calendar dates stuck on one long day. It felt like a heavy truck glued in the mud with no hope of ever moving even half an inch.
I raised my voice towards the heavens so loudly that I was afraid the whole world could hear me. My voice echoed across the thick green terrain. Hours later, the fierce looking clouds stared at me as if they would fall off the sky and run after me. What did I do wrong? I couldn’t get it. Still no sign. What do I do? I lay down with my head touching the ground because I couldn’t look up any more.
I sobbed in distress. My heart was heavy. I said my prayer a dozen more times but still nothing! Seconds had turned to minutes, minutes to hours and hours to many days. A year later I couldn’t see the sun rise or even set. My eyes didn’t even seem to trace the horizon of hope. Everything was dark. Darker than the deepest pit. Darker than the darkest coal on earth. I had to leave. With my hurting self, I just had to start moving.
My feet were feeble and very sore. Just as I rose up to walk, I heard a soft small voice like a flute so many meters away. It got clearer and I heard the best words ever! The serenity in my heart was incomprehensible.
“My son, why are you in despair? I am the Sovereign Lord and my thoughts are not like yours, neither are my ways. I never sleep nor slumber. How you perceive everything in your life is not the way I do. Some things in life are best learned in the darkest moments of your life and I need you to trust me more? Did you know that the dry desert in your life draws you more to the river of life? In the silence is where my answer is. My desire is that you trust the miracle even when it’s not already there. I love you so much to let you go. I am with you.”
“Are you going through the darkest moments in your life and it feels like the heavens are silent? Praise Him with songs of thanksgiving! Desire Him more and allow Him to teach your heart to wait. If Abraham and Sarah didn’t wait, what would have become of their generation? Would Job receive the double portion of His wealth and riches either? May be through your waiting is when others will see God. It’s not easy but it’s worth it!”
Psalm 46:10, “Be still and know that I am God”